What I Have Learned To Do When I Sit Down To Work

11 What I Have Learned To Do When I Sit Down To Work On A Shitty First

What I have learned to do when I sit down to work on a shitty first draft is to quiet the voices in my head. First there is the vinegar-lipped Reader Lady, who says primly, “Well, that’s not very interesting, is it?†And there is the emaciated German male who writes these Orwellian memos detailing your thought crimes. And there are your parents, agonizing over your lack of loyalty and discretion; and there’s William Burroughs, dozing off or shooting up because he finds you as bold and articulate as a houseplant; and so on. And there are also the dogs: let’s not forget the dogs, the dogs in their pen who will surely hurtle and snarl their way out if you ever stop writing, because writing is, for some of us, the latch that keeps the door of the pen closed, keeps those crazy ravenous dogs contained.

Quieting these voices is at least half the battle I fight daily. But this is better than it used to be. It used to be 87 percent. Left to its own devices, my mind spends much of its time having conversations with people who aren’t there. I walk along defending myself to people, or exchanging repartee with them, or rationalizing my behavior, or seducing them with gossip, or pretending I’m on their TV talk show or whatever.

I speed or run an aging yellow light or don’t come to full stop, and one nanosecond later am explaining to imaginary cops exactly what I had to do what I did, or insight that I did not in fact do it. I happened to mention this to hypnotist I saw many years ago, and he looked at me very nicely. At first I thought he was feeling around on the floor for the silent alarm button, but then he gave me the following exercise, which I still use to this day. Close your eyes and get quite for a minute, until the chatter starts up. Then isolate one of the voices and imagine the person speaking as a mouse.

Pick it up by the tail and drop it into a mason jar. Then isolate another voice, pick it up by the tail, drop it in the jar. And so on. Drop in any high maintenance parental units, drop in any contractors, lawyers, colleagues, children, anyone who is whining in your head. Then put the lid on, and watch all these mouse people clawing at the glass, jabbering away, trying to make you feel like shit because you won’t do what they want—won’t give them more money, won’t be more successful, won’t see them more often.

Then imagine that there is a volume-control button on the bottle. Turn it all the way up for a minute, and listen to the stream of angry, neglected, guilt mongering voice. Then turn it all the way down and watch the frantic mice lunge at the glass, trying to get to you. Leave it down, and get back to your shitty first draft. A writer friend of mine suggests opening the jar and shooting them all in the head. But I think he’s a little angry, and I’m sure nothing like this would ever occur to you.

Paper For Above instruction

Anne Lamott’s essay “Shitty First Drafts” offers a candid and reassuring perspective on the often misunderstood process of writing. She dispels the myth that successful writers produce perfect drafts effortlessly, emphasizing instead that all accomplished authors start with imperfect, rough drafts. Lamott advocates for embracing the messiness of initial efforts, viewing them as essential steps toward clarity and quality in subsequent revisions. Her insights resonate deeply with writers at all levels, reminding us that persistence, patience, and a willingness to write badly are crucial components of the creative process.

One of the central themes in Lamott’s essay is the myth of the ideal writer’s mood or state of mind. Many believe that seasoned writers sit down each day feeling confident and inspired, effortlessly producing polished work. Lamott refutes this, asserting that even the most successful authors struggle with self-doubt, fear, and resistance. She vividly describes her own experience of continuously battling inner voices that judge and undermine her confidence. This depiction demystifies the myth of effortless creativity and normalizes the frustrations faced by writers, fostering a more compassionate understanding of the writing process.

Another significant aspect of Lamott’s argument is her emphasis on process over product. She encourages writers to accept that the first draft is inherently flawed and to see it as a “child’s draft” that allows creative freedom without self-censorship. By letting go of the need for perfection early in the process, writers can overcome the paralysis that often accompanies editing and rewriting. Lamott’s illustration of the analogy between drafts—down draft, up draft, dental draft—captures the iterative nature of writing and highlights how each stage builds toward a refined and polished final piece. For many writers, this approach alleviates anxiety and promotes perseverance, revealing that writing is a process of ongoing refinement rather than instant achievement.

Personally, I believe that Lamott’s emphasis on the process over the product is particularly resonant. The idea of allowing oneself to produce an unstructured, raw first draft without judgment encourages experimentation and risk-taking. It counters the tendency to overanalyze early on, which can hinder progress. In my own writing, I have found that embracing the messiness of a first draft liberates creative energy and results in richer, more authentic work. Moreover, understanding that revision is an integral and necessary part of writing relieves the pressure to produce perfection initially. This perspective has been invaluable in helping me develop resilience and patience as a writer.

Furthermore, Lamott’s candid discussion of the difficulties inherent in writing challenges the romanticized notion of inspiration. She describes writing as often unpleasant, cold, and frustrating, supporting her stance with her own experiences of battling internal critics and procrastination. By acknowledging these struggles, she makes writing feel more accessible and less intimidating, particularly for beginners. Her advice to simply get something—anything—down on paper resonates as a practical strategy for overcoming writer’s block. It emphasizes that action and persistence are more important than waiting for perfect conditions or inspiration to strike.

In conclusion, Lamott’s essay offers an honest and encouraging perspective that validates the messy, imperfect reality of writing. She underscores that all writers, regardless of experience or skill level, produce terrible first drafts. The key is to accept this as a normal part of the process and to keep moving forward. Her insights remind us that perseverance, self-compassion, and a willingness to embrace imperfection are vital for growth and success in writing. Adopting her approach can transform the daunting task of writing into a more manageable and even enjoyable journey, fostering resilience and creativity in the process.

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